Grad!!

Choosing grad dresses is hard!! Dude, and to find one that has sleeves is near impossible. SO here are my choices (creations)thus far:

Taking a look around
(And the rain falls)
I see water on the ground
(And my spirit calls)

In the rain I sing
(See the rain fall)
Without a care of anything
(See my spirit call)

Soaring above pain
(Rain splashes on my face)
As a child free again
(My spirit loves this place)

Taking a look around
(As the rain falls)
Puddles on the ground
(And my spirit calls)

But finally it drops
(And the rain stills)
The rain finally stops
(And my skin chills)

I look around again
(No more rain here)
Free now of the pain
(There's no more fear)

Once again now sad
(I watch the rain fall)
Witness to rain I'm glad
(I hear my spirit call)

I leave the dry
(I feel the rain)
Now I can cry
(Sad leaves again)

Within the precious rain
(Can't see tears while wet)
A healing power for pain
(It helps us to forget)

Great feelings

I haven't written in a while. A lot of feelings have been mixed up lately and I felt so alone this past week. Only today and yesterday have been better. I had been really depressed, (I am good at getting myself depressed... jeez, I just think of everything that has sucked lately and there you go. I'm depressed.) but not today because I have found a cure. It's not to think "Oh I'm better than all the people around me" but it is to think, "Some day I'll be a leader, and who knows who I'll lead. Right now some one may look up to me so I better fill the role." And then BAM! I feel better. I feel like "I'm going to be great one day, so right now I'm going to be the best I can."

It's a great feeling.

Morning of the 15th

You know what? Most people hit the 'snooze' button, right? hehe... And to think what I do...

Ok, picture this if you can;
I'm sleeping in bed and my alarm goes off at 6:14am. I get up, walk over the the other side of the room where my alarm rests on my dresser, and turn it off. I then go back to bed.

At 6:20am, my second alarm goes off, so I get up, and completely aware of my surroundings, I set my alarm to 6:25am. Then I go back to bed to pick up on my dream deprivation.

I then get back up at the appointed 6:25am and again set my alarm to a different time. I set it to 6:30am instead.

At 6:30am, I get up, turn off my alarm and turn on the light because I know that I can't sleep in any longer than 6:30am or my schedule is thrown off.
What a way to get up hey?

I don't hit the snooze. ;)

Hahaha!!

I am really excited. I actually cleaned my room. I know, I know, it's not all that exciting. But it excites me! I can WALK on my floor instead of side-stepping around the edges. It's great. I really should have taken before and after pictures but I am not done yet, and well... I didn't take before pictures so it is basically impossible unless I want to re-mess my room.

Confusing

This stuff is fairly confusing. I've been trying to get my site up and working. I'm having fun and I am learning lots. What is annoying me though is that the server or the hosting service goes down. It's been down as long as I've had the service. Grr... I can't place any pictures on the site because it is an "Internal Service Error". Sooo... I guess that only leaves me one option. My brother. He'll know what to do. Here's some of the pictures just because I am so frustrated that it didn't work on the other site.

I can't believe this. This site won't load the pictures either. This is frustrating. Ok, well maybe there is something wrong with my computer.


HA!! I finally got it working! These pictures are going to roll down from the top hopefully and have the options of the site listed on them. I am pretty happy with the look they have so far. So here they are:

Flags and school

I just discovered "Flags". I didn't know what that was for before (showing how realistically new to this whole blogging thing I am...) So, I have discovered that blogs can be flagged if objectionable content is displayed. I like the idea.

So, considering that the 'flag' option is available I feel a bit safer. But before I wrote the post before this one, I actually did a little cruising of blogs. I can't remember what the address was, but I found a certain blog spot that was of particular interest to me. It is not that the subject was interesting. Far from it. It was just every day entries. What DID interest me was the fact that it was enjoyable to read. It is rare for me to find something I actually want to read the entire way through that is that boring. I read through his posts entirely. It is very interesting. Something about his style of writing is appealing.

Now, if only I could duplicate that style so that mine is interesting to read. That style would be so useful in writing essays or anything else for that matter. I don't remember the blog spot so it is impossible to reference. All I know is that he was talking about laundry. 'What an interesting topic' you may comment... Yes, an interesting topic when it is said the way he said it. Of course, I would want my own spin to the style he has, but I want to know his secret. I couldn't say what it was that was appealing. He kept his paragraphs short... He had a stress-free or almost careless approach. Maybe that is it. He just didn't care who read it, and didn't give much thought to the meaning of everything.... And yet strangely he wasn't shallow about things. How does that work? I don't know, or I'd be doing it.

Here's a cute poem I wrote a little bit a while ago:

School
Welcome to the hospital for the un-learned.
The treatment room numbers are patterned.
One to one hundred round the corner and right,
Add one hundred for each floors height.

The doctors are accurate, knowing and kind.
Sure to enlighten, brighten: Cure your mind.
Sick and ailed you must be made better,
So learn your stuff and write us a letter.

The sick beds are placed in columns and rows
We test you and quiz you on who really knows.
On Biology, Physics and Chem must you grill
And don't forget CALM: it's your happy pill.

Essays are easy once you know how,
If you really get stuck figure it out somehow.
We can't really help you: we aren't allowed.
But take off your cap and don't be too loud.

Note: CALM is a Career And Life Management course everyone in highschool has to take.

Frustrated

I am really getting frustrated. Here I am with some spare time to view other blogs and I am simply disgusted. I don't want to look at half of these blogs because MORE than half is junk! It is full of porn and crappy words! This is pathetic! I thought I was going to look at the blogs, you know, cause I kind of expect someone to do the same for me. But, gosh! I can't look at that junk. There is no way I am going to cruise around. Not anymore. Nope. Junk is what it is and it can stay there.