I no longer believe the church of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints is the true church of God.
When my mom found out, she gracefully reacted with love which shocked me because she strongly believes the church is the only way to be with God again.
Later, after many other events took place, my dear mother with love in her heart and tears in her eyes told me how grieved she was that I was choosing to live as I was. I tried to comfort her by saying I could understand how she felt and that I felt the love for me which she had. But instead of feeling heard or understood, she said, "No, you can't possibly understand! There is so much more you're losing, your exaltation for example. But of course, you don't believe in that anymore."
Well, I just want to say I do understand. Do you think it was easy to leave the church knowing my exaltation was on the line? I wasn't doing what I did without thinking. It took much thought, much prayer, much action and talking things through - these sorts of things aren't simple or small, so it's not as if I don't understand that to her it would seem that my exaltation was being risked by my decisions.
I'm happier now, and more certain in the uncertain. I love not knowing everything - it just means that there is so much more to discover. :)
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